
ELEGY FOR MY BREATH
by Tacey M. Atsitty
Detail of artwork by Aluu Prosper Chigozie
When I was younger, I was taught to hold
my breath while dust devils dove in and out
of the infield. Close your eyes, someone told
me, as I turned to watch trash strewn about
in the beautiful way it does, all weight-
less like hair blowing slow-mo in the wind,
the girl always turns knowingly, her fate
awaits in a Hollywood lens, for Wind-
in-His-Hair. If you’re not careful, you’ll breathe
them in, and they’ll become part of you: spirits
or men in your body. I want to heave—
just let it all in— or out, breath near its
breaking height. It was March 2020
when the earth shook in Utah, and I paused
for a few years, afraid of the plenty
airborne droplets and the havoc they caused.
I thought I’d killed my dad on a trip home,
just before the country shut down. We’d shared
a roast mutton sandwich and root beer foam,
when I learned I’d been exposed—I was scared
to say the very least, and sorrowful.
So full of sorry that those days waiting
passed like lifetimes and lives—my sorrow, full
of carbon dioxide recreating
the earth’s atmosphere. We now need house plants,
as many as we can find, or I move
to Florida, where even my leather pants
mold, emitting spores for my lungs to love.
Tacey M. Atsitty, Diné (Navajo), is Tsénahabiłnii (Sleep Rock People) and born for Ta'neeszahnii (Tangle People). Atsitty is a recipient of the Wisconsin Brittingham Prize for Poetry and other prizes. Her work has appeared in POETRY; EPOCH; Kenyon Review Online; Prairie Schooner; Leavings, and other publications. Her first book is Rain Scald (University of New Mexico Press, 2018), and her second book is (At) Wrist (University of Wisconsin Press, 2023). She has a PhD in Creative Writing from Florida State University and is Assistant Professor of Creative Writing at Beloit College in Wisconsin.